1- To start off I am a TERRIBLE gift getter. If I didn't ask for it or need it, I get upset that you went out of your way to get me a present. So heads up friends, if I didn't specifically say 'I want that...' DON'T get me anything. Because then I feel guilty that you spent money on something I won't use or even like. Sorry It sounds really harsh but it's how I feel.
2- Christmas Day, has been so unsatisfying for about 10 years or so. I love the Christmas Season. Music, candy, snow, GIVING gifts to people, and all that jazz; but I hate GETTING things. I do, I really do. Mostly because it feels so unsatisfying (like the morning after a one night stand, it's just not worth it). I love the 4 weeks between Thanksgiving and Christmas, but truth be told I coulkd go without the 25th. Now this is only because every once in a while I get a gift from grandma that I don't like and won't ever wear, mostly becasue it looks like a mountain man would wear it. (And we all know how rugged and outdoorsy I am) Or when mom gets me a $50 video game that I didn't want but doesn't get you the $15 book I wanted. One year my mother asked me to write a christmas list, I put 3 things totally a very small amount. What do I get? about 9 things that I didn't want or need that was woth more than 3x my small wish list. (In case you were wondering I got none of the 3 items and I put very specifically that I did not want socks...I got socks)
3- My birthday. Everyone is shocked when I tell them how much I hate MY birthday. I love other peoples birthdays but I could do without mine. Every year my birhtday party was the best ones because I would plan this spectacle of games and events. One year I wrote a murder mystery, I did a clue game, a scanvenger hunt etc. For Kristina's 17th bithday I wrote a Disney themed murder mystery surprise. Everyone loved it! But when people get me things and throw surprise parties I really don't like it. This is how I think it "You went to all this effort to get me something, you spent time, money and thought into getting me something or doing something for me. Now I have to do something bigger or better for you. Thanks for that!" I feel guilty if someone gives me a nice gift and then I get them something cheap. Now I did love the coloring book, cookies, baloons, cakes and picture I got. Just what would I say to you if I didn't like it? This does not mean to not give me things but...be fairly sure that I would love it and use it.
So on Sunday night I stayed up until 1:30 talking with Ben about how much I hate my birthday and I specifically request no surptise party and no cake. Mostly because I would not get home from school, driving to Brigham for 2 shows and back until 10:30 and all I would want to do is sleep. On Monday in my last class I find out I have an assignment due at midnight. So I plan in my head to, after coming back to Logan, head to the Library to do the grammar homework. As we were driving up, we as in Hillery, Kade and I, I was telling them about everything you have previously read. Hillery says "oh, shoot!" She felt so awkward because they had planned a party and cake for me. I was under the assumption that the party on Saturday was my party and I loved it. Needless to say we were both feeling really awkward because birthday's are a big deal for hil. As I arrived a bunch of my friends were there with cakes and singing and festivities. After about 10 minutes I headed back to my room to do my homework. And this why I do not like my birthday. My friends went out of their way to do something for me that hadn't planned on. So I felt bad that I was a terrible birthday boy but I had planned other things.
The Whale's out but I really don't like presents.
You think too highly of yourself. Obviously nobody went out of their way or they wouldn't have been here. Spending "too much" is clearly your opinion and not theirs. Otherwise they wouldn't have done anything. I thought it was fun for everyone. And you smiled, even if it was fake and only for ten minutes. That's all people need. Just a little appreciation! Love ya Mr. 22
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